Anxious...

The brown spotting has continued. It's very light & spotty (hence the term) but it has been consistent since Thursday. So I called my dr and I have an appt at 11am today to see if everything is okay.

I'm pretty much on pins & needles because I don't really know what/how to think. Do I think positive but expect to receive some bad news or do I think realistically that something may have happened but hope for the best?

I've been doing both and it's really doing a number on my mind.

I had my freak out moment Saturday night when I was going to get laundry and then it hit me...I don't know what is going on. And I'm so freaking scared.

Dan was trying to tell me to relax and that we don't have any control over this. How he turned into the calm, rationale one in this I'll never know, but he's been amazing. I don't necessarily want control, even though I always need to be in control, it's just a sense of knowing the status. So I guess that is wanting control but I can't help it... that's just how I am.

Hopefully we'll have good news to report later on...keep baby rice-o-roni in your thoughts.