Negative Result...

I got my bloodwork result back. It was negative. My hCg levels were down which means that the embryo did not attach. So even though I was pregnant for a brief time, I am currently not pregnant.

I so wanted this to be true, but it was not meant to be this time around. I start the Dostinex asap and then our nurse, Lisa, said that I'll get my period once I stop the progesterone - which I won't take again until otherwise told.

I was very worried about going this morning. I was trying to be optimistic because I really wanted this to be a positive result, but I just knew I was no longer pregnant. I've known since Friday night. Call it woman's intuition - I just knew. I was hoping the result would be positive, but I was also being realistic.

The one thing that's easy about this is that we did not tell anyone. So if I don't want to, I don't have to tell anyone just yet about this. But dammit ... this sucks!

I'm very sad but I have to believe things happen for a reason.